Sweet and Innocent
JD watched Emily leave and sighed. He lay on his stomach, inhaling deeply of the hay cushioning him. Silly, to think that Emily might want to try again - and even sillier of him to think he'd do any better this time. He was just a kid, Buck was always telling him that. Just cause he felt like he could... do... something... that didn't mean it was so.
He chewed on a blade of hay and spat it out. All that howling and stuff Emily had done... and nothin' to show for it. She was probably off someplace, laughing at him. Not that he blamed her. He'd laugh at himself if it wasn't so sad.
Emily was real pretty. And she'd tried real hard to help him out. But something wasn't right. When they got to... he just couldn't. He hadn't told her why, 'cause he hadn't really figured it out yet, but it just kinda didn't feel right. He'd actually shuddered a little, hoping she wouldn't notice. What did that mean?
"Hey kid!"
JD peered over the edge of the livery's top level. "Buck!" he called. "I ain't in the mood." He figured word had gotten 'round already.
Buck wasn't grinning as JD had expected him to. "Just came to check if you were alright, that's all. I heard some... well..." Now he grinned, and JD could have smacked him for it. "Heard some howlin' earlier, but then, just when Josiah and I walked 'round the livery, Emily came running out, and..."
"Buck, go away!"
But Buck was already halfway up the stairs, undeterred. "Wanna tell me about it, kid?"
JD glared at him. "I wouldn't tell ya to go away if I did!"
Buck grinned broadly. "I'll stick around anyway. You might change your mind."
"Suit yourself." JD turned on his side, away from Buck who settled down beside him.
Buck didn't wait long. He got impatient easily. "Everything go alright with Emily?" he asked.
JD turned back his head and hissed, "No, it didn't go alright! Now will ya leave me alone?" Before he could turn away again, Buck's hand was on his shoulder, making that impossible.
"I'm listening, kid."
JD huffed. "Too bad I ain't talkin'."
Buck grinned. "If ya need a few pointers..."
JD tore himself away and buried his head in the hay. "Buck, will ya just leave it alone?" he mumbled. Then he spat, having gotten some hay into his mouth.
Buck chuckled. "It's just that... Josiah and I were right outside, and we heard her howlin' and such, and..."
JD sat up with a jolt. "What the hell are you doin' following me around anyway? What, were you gonna come up here and help me put...?"
Buck got very flustered, just like JD. "Just making sure you were..."
"Alright. Yeah, I know. Well, I ain't." JD bit his lip, suddenly no longer sure that he didn't need some help after all. "I..." he stammered. "I couldn't... I mean, it just wouldn't..."
Buck nodded understandingly, making it unnecessary for JD to go on.
JD shrugged. "Guess I am just a kid after all."
"No, you ain't."
JD's eyes met Buck's. He was surprised. "You're always tellin' me."
"That's just teasin', JD." Buck smiled. "I don't think for a minute that you're a kid, but it makes you so darn crazy when I call you that and when you go all angry, you're so..." He drew a deep breath to stop himself from going on.
JD frowned. "What?"
"Nothin'." Buck laughed nervously.
JD shrugged. "Well, there's something wrong with me," he concluded.
Buck shook his head determinedly.
"Then why can I only..." JD swallowed. "Why am I only ready to do... stuff when I'm by myself?"
That caught Buck's attention. He listened up as JD continued stuttering.
"I mean, I do okay, ya know... 'til I get to be with a girl. And then... it just won't happen, Buck." JD took a deep breath, now that it was out.
Buck just had to know. "What's different when you're by yourself?"
JD gave him a wide-eyed look. "There ain't no girl around?"
Nodding thoughtfully, Buck considered the implications. "So... is it that you're nervous with a girl? Or is it that it's a... girl?"
Laughing harshly, JD said, "It better be that I'm nervous, 'cause if it's girls, then there's gotta be somethin' wrong with me." When Buck didn't immediately respond, he looked at him. "Right?"
"Wrong."
JD grew very serious. "You wouldn't say that if you knew what I think about... when I'm alone..." His milky white skin flushed a deep scarlet.
"Yes, I would." Buck tilted his head, looking up at JD. His friend looked so innocent and bewildered - adorable, that was the word. He'd thought so the first day JD had stumbled into his life, and he still did. Just adorable.
"And I'm not tellin' ya," JD quickly said.
"Don't have to," Buck assured him. "If you don't want to. But I'd never think there's anything wrong with you, JD."
"Yeah, you sure would."
"No."
"Buck!" JD growled.
"I wouldn't."
"Buck... shut up!"
Buck grinned. "JD, I wouldn't."
"Oh really?" JD asked with a challenge in his eyes.
"I swear!" Buck raised his hand, about to make an oath, but the hand was pushed back and hit the wooden boards at the same time Buck's head did. He yelped when JD loomed over him.
"Then you're a damn liar, Buck!" JD hissed, and a moment later, his mouth was on Buck's. His hands were restraining Buck's wrists in the hay and his strong thighs were clenched around Buck's hips, holding his astonished friend in place.
Buck tried to breathe. To gasp. To yell. Anything. Except there wasn't any way to get air 'til JD decided to let him have some. Finally, he got a bit, and Buck realized it was JD's own breath he got when JD's tongue parted his lips. And he groaned and forgot all about stupid stuff like breathing - damn, JD was kissing him! JD was kissing him!! JD was kissing him!!!
The moment JD's grip loosened around his wrists for just a second, Buck tore his hands loose. JD started drawing back, but Buck had him, wouldn't let him get away, grabbed his shoulders and pulled him right back down, causing him to lose his balance and land on top of him.
And finally, JD got it. The way he'd been crushing Buck's lips slowly softened to a tender caress, his lips parting wider as he felt Buck's tongue move back against his and push it out of the way to get into his mouth. JD grinned into the kiss, and then he rolled off Buck, his hands tight on Buck's upper arms, spinning them until Buck was above him.
Buck raised his head and gasped. "Damn, JD!"
JD looked dead serious for a moment, then he broke into a gale of laughter, relief washing over him.
Buck grinned. "S'that what you think about?"
JD nodded, still laughing.
"Well hell, then you're a darn good mind reader, darlin'! Cause guess what?"
JD narrowed his eyes, aware that Buck's hands were under his waist and that he was laying on top of him like he belonged there. "You belong there!" he gasped.
"Where?" Buck asked, his mustache twitching with barely suppressed laughter.
"Right here!" JD said, raising his head up off the ground, stealing another kiss. "On top of me."
Buck smiled. "Does that mean I'm gonna be on top all the time?"
JD liked what that implied. He liked it a whole lot. "Everytime I've tried anything with a girl, I always thought how I wish I could be... her."
That took a bit to sink in. "You wanna be a girl?"
JD laughed. "Buck!"
Buck grinned. "I think I know what you mean. You wanna be on the bottom."
"I wanna be conquered."
"You wanna submit."
"I wanna be swept right off my feet."
"You're already lyin' down, JD. Can't go no lower than that."
"We'll see about that," JD said, pulling Buck down for a very distracting kiss, during which he successfully managed to undo Buck's pants and push them down over his hips.
Buck didn't even realize until a cool breeze blew across his bare butt. "Hey!" he yelped.
"Don't you want me?" JD asked, lowering his eyes and pouting.
"You know I do." Buck proved it by leading JD's hand to his groin. "Feel that?"
"Yeah..." JD gasped.
"That's how much I want you. Touch me, JD."
JD did, very carefully, suddenly remembering that there was still that small matter of him not knowing what he was doing. But he was doin' something right, cause Buck's eyes were narrowing and his lips parted and he was... purring?
"Oh yeah, that's real good, JD. Keep doin' what you're... uh!"
JD looked down between them, to the tiny space where his hand was tight around Buck's cock, stroking nervously. That sight gave him a jolt, and he whimpered.
"You're not having any trouble now, are ya, darlin'?" Buck teased in a whisper.
JD blushed. "No..."
"Still... better make sure." And Buck lay down on his side next to JD, looking down at him while he started undoing JD's gun-belt.
"I'm scared, Buck." JD didn't really like to admit it, but he figured Buck would work it out on account of him trembling like a leaf anyhow.
"Hey, this is me, JD," Buck reassured when JD turned his face towards him. He kept on fumbling with the closure of JD's trousers, his eyes softening at the fearful but lust-filled gaze.
"Yeah..." JD panted, clasping handfuls of hay to stop himself from grabbing for Buck while he was slowly being undressed. "You ain't gonna hurt me, right, Buck?"
"JD..." Buck leaned down, gazing deep into JD's eyes before giving him the most tender kiss imaginable. Then he sighed a little. "I'd never, ever hurt you, darlin'. Don't you know that I love you?"
JD's eyes widened. He opened his mouth. He wanted to reply in kind, but all that came out was a little squeak and the word, "Buck..."
"God, you're just too damn sweet for words, baby!" Buck licked his lips, his hand now slowly flipping open button after button on its way up JD's stomach and chest. He felt JD panting and heard him sighing under his touch, and it damn near made him weep.
"Sweet..." JD gasped out softly, a smile curving up his lips. "The 'girl' kind of sweet?" he asked.
Buck smiled. "No, the you kind of sweet. Ain't nobody else in the world as sweet as you, JD..." And he leaned over him to nip at the pale flesh of his stomach, before licking his way up over a smooth chest, tickling at a couple of hard little nubs on the way before suckling on JD's neck - arched into the caress as JD lay back panting. All the while, he worked his way into JD's open pants with the hand he wasn't using to support himself.
JD groaned when Buck's big, tender hand closed around him. He pleaded in a whisper when it began to stroke him. "Buck... please... please..."
"What is it you want, darlin'?" Buck breathed heavily in JD's ear, before kissing his cheek and moving on back to his mouth.
As soon as he could speak, JD muttered, "Don't know..." He didn't. He had no idea how Buck could do with him what he was supposed to do to a girl.
Buck smiled down at JD's flushed face affectionately. "Seems to me it's just as well I do..." There was no joking, no trying to ruffle JD's feathers in that remark. Just a teasing, breathy promise.
"Don't you go anywhere!" Buck said to a temporarily shocked JD when he got up. "I'll just get us somethin' downstairs."
JD shivered in the momentary loneliness of lying exposed and half-naked, hard and sweating in the hay while Buck scrambled down the stairs to the livery and got back in a minute, grinning as he set down a tub of saddle grease.
"What's that for, Buck?" JD asked fearfully.
Buck got to distracting him before JD could panic. He kissed him and held him and made him want him even more than he had before. Now it was time to show JD just what it was he was wanting but couldn't put a name to.
"I told you I wasn't gonna hurt you, JD." Buck smiled tenderly. "This is so I won't."
"But..." JD spluttered, trying to figure out what Buck was gonna do, when he suddenly felt something press against his... uh! "Buck!"
"Shh..." Buck soothed him as he slipped his oiled up finger into JD's tiny opening, slowly... gently... giving JD time to get used to it. He moved it around a bit, figuring out how much he'd be able to stretch JD without it hurting. "I'm gonna make you feel real good, JD," he whispered, kissing the parted lips when he felt JD tense beneath him.
JD kissed him back, but he was holding his breath, lying stiff as a board even while he decided that strange as the sensation was, it felt kinda... good.
"Try and relax, darlin'." Buck pushed the smooth oil as far in as he could reach, withdrawing his finger and coating the opening with some more. Better too much than not enough. He'd promised he wouldn't hurt JD and he sure as hell wasn't gonna.
JD panted. "Buck, you're not..." He got flustered, unsure how to even ask what he wanted to know. Probably just as well, 'cause he might have started running if he had.
"Yeah, JD, I am," Buck responded to the unasked question, and spreading JD's legs wide around his own hips, he slowly... oh so slowly... started pushing himself in.
Gasping, JD stared up at him. Was this... would this be how a girl would feel? So... open? So vulnerable? So... He groaned when after his initial discomfort, Buck suddenly hit a spot that sent a shudder through him. So... good!
"Relax... it's alright, JD. I'm all the way in now." Buck drew back a little, making sure he could move smoothly, and then he pushed forward again. Slowly but forcefully enough to send JD's mind reeling.
"Buck... oh god, Buck!" JD squeezed his eyes shut, clasping Buck's upper arms and finally relaxing fully, making any trace of discomfort evaporate. All that was left was blinding, overwhelming pleasure as Buck moved faster and faster. So deep. So very deep inside of him.
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Walking by the livery, Emily pouted when she heard the old wooden boards inside creaking. But her pout changed to a grimace of dismay when she realized someone inside was... howling. JD was howling!! And it didn't sound fake, either. Not the howling or the groaning or the screams of 'oh god' and 'yes, oh yes'. She huffed and gathered up her skirts, hurrying away and out of earshot.
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"Shh... JD," Buck tried to quiet him, because JD was as close to yelling out his name as he could get before Chris or one of the others would come rushin' in. Then he decided there'd be a better way to keep him quiet.
JD's deep groan was suffocated by Buck's mouth on his as Buck's tongue mimicked what was happening lower down between them. JD sucked hard on that tongue, almost biting down on it when he came. But he didn't. Buck hadn't hurt him and he wouldn't hurt him either. Not now. Not ever.
And with that thought and a smile, JD slung his arms around Buck's neck, waiting out his lover's hot release inside his body before drawing him down and holding him close as Buck slipped from his body. "Love you..." he whispered in Buck's ear.
Buck smiled against JD's neck, panting heavily. "Love you back."
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